mixed signals

So

School has begun its both fun and a bit wierd....... Such as so I am a senior!!!!!!!! freaky! and quite cool

So I am not in choir anymore wierd!! but I have to keep reminding myself its all for the best

Senior project its starting ok so far so good

Something that never fails to make me feel moi better is old musicals especially Oklahoma they just seem to say underneath its going to be o.k. kid keep your chin up

So the large attention whore part of me is taking over because without choir I dont get as much of a release anymore so I am going to be the most epic performer at the talent show and rock them bitches socks off

So have you ever felt a little stupid when you fall in love with a song and you discover that its a cover of another song?

So I had a major maturity moment today during Cage. We were discussing things and normally I usually am the one yelling over everyone but today I kept to myself and really tried to listen to what people were saying and when I waited to and really thought about what I was going to say I ended up making a huge impression when I did speak up!!!

So look at me I am growing up

or at least today

The Ticking Countdown

So I started this blog and did the one thing I vowed I would not, completely forget about it. Well, OOPS.... Now that summer is coming to a close I suppose there is no better time to get back to the art of blogging.


So as each day passes I am having a bit of anxiety that is building in the pit of my stomach about (gulp) SENIOR YEAR!!!!!!!!!! There is such much responsibility that is falling on my very nervous shoulders and things I have to do

The thing though that I realize is the most scary is that in a very short span of time I need to become an adult!!! Which scares me to no end because inside I feel nowhere near ready for this. My whole inner whatever is in some kind of denial that I have one more year of public school and then it is off to college. I don't have a clue as to where i want to go at this point which is getting very daunting I even still need to take the SATs this fall which has me scared shitliss.

Well the year is going to begin with lots of activity. I have to do my senior project which has been quite dormant since the end of last school year but it will come together I hope

Getting a job I am re-starting the applying process I still have not come to terms that I will probably end up working for Burger King!

And of course I need to get out of choir pronto before the year begins because I am so not going back there I have really closed the door on that little situation and quite frankly I will not be on any little bastards leash anymore.

Life

No 4th of July plans
People stealing our mail
Missing audition music
Not spending time with friends
No money
Lack of confidence
Feeling of invisibility
Not having a car
Clothes that don’t fit rightNo one apparently cares what the hell I’m doing which just feels

GREAT!!!!!!!!!

R.I.P Suzy subaru

This week has been a major bitch

Why oh Why did I have to crunch my car!!

and thats not the only very naughty thing I did this week

I told a very large fib to my parents

You see I told them I carshed because I was dodging a deer

but, In truth there was no deer

I was grabing my waterbottle off the floor

oops!

But I knew that if I tld them the rith I would not go over very well

however my karma is for the most part in the pooper so I am waiting for the cinderblock to drop on my head at any moment

Ciao

what's you wee-one telling you

So all of today all the toilets in my house have been making some interesting noises. It's like some kind of clunk-shake-clunk-thud sound. So being home alone and having the handyman knowledge level of about Paris hilton I decided to take care of my business outside. After the fact, something occured I could not remember the last time I wee-weed outside my house. very odd


So I was reading the great american publication "OK" weekly when I realized that there is something sick and wrong in this world when the cover story is all about the innerthoughts of a little tot. Plastered on the cover is little Shiloh Jolie-Pitt-Aniston yadda yadda and how she is prepairing both physically and ;oh this just slays me in the aisle, mentally for the arrival of the much "needed" new spawns of Brangilena. Jesus Christ people she is two flippin years old, she still is getting used to using the big people bathroom. But little child genius Shiloh is going through all the steps to make sure that she can handle the new little babes in the house. Putting aside her age and mental capicity I am very sure its very stressful to be living in a 60 million dollar French castle with parents who leave tips of about 900 at McDonalds.

And speaking of the parents who are all about saving the earth have you ever heard of the problem of "overpopulation", so Angelipsa tell that golden retriever you are breedin with to sleep on the damm couch sometimes.

The first friggin post

So here we go the first post of my first blog. In this blessed little place I shall tell you every sortied detail of my sexed up and liquor soaked life. so lets get it fuckin started........

You know there is a god when you eat carbs. and also a Satan. When I am old and blissfully fat I will soak my body in starched bleached refined white bread and it will be in fucking heaven. However, for the time being its just me and the good old devil going at each other with knives. Maybe I will just skip ahead to that part and tell you all about putting the weight back on

or just

talk about hot heavy sex

to come